From Huskies To Husbands

Yesterday I went in to town with DH when he went to work.  I needed to get some grocery shopping done and really needed to get out of the house too.  As you know from my previous post, I didn’t get a lot of sleep on Thursday night and was very tired but it wasn’t anything that I couldn’t push through.

I spent some time at the computer lab on campus when we first got into town because really what else can one do at 6 am!  Then I went to Safeway to pick up some items that they had on sale that we use.  After that I went to Albertsons again to pick up some items that they had on sale that we use.  Next I went to the dollar store to see if they had gotten anything new in, specifically pickles as DH loves them and they are like 1/3 of the regular price there.  Catching the trend?  Yup, I bargain shop.  I try to save us money any way that I can especially on food.  My next stop was Wal-mart to finish up the shopping and to get dog food.  Well my hip and lower back started hurting so badly that I was limping along and almost in tears from the pain.  I got what we absolutely had to have and got out of there without really getting everything.  I just couldn’t do it.  Not being able to do something as simple as the grocery shopping without being limited by the pain is just unacceptable.

I called the doctors office to check on the status of things.  The nurse eventually called me back and said that they didn’t have the report yet.  Actually that they weren’t even sure if the previous scans had shown up yet.  But she strongly told me that the doctor didn’t think that this was anything major and that I needed to just be patient and that they would let me know when they knew something.  I tried to tell her about the pain just from attempting to do the grocery shopping and she pretty much blew me off.  I was furious when I got off the phone.  I was so angry that I was on the verge of tears.

I don’t know where to turn.  I don’t know what to do.  This was the one doctor in Laramie that I had some faith in.  The doctor that had diagnosed my PCOS and had always treated me with respect… There aren’t that many doctors in Laramie.  I actually don’t know of another doctor that I would even attempt to see as I have heard just too many horror stories.  There is one surgeon that I could call as I trust him, but what can he do for me in this situation.  I probably will call his office on Monday and see if he can’t grease the wheels so to speak.  The ER isn’t an option as the ER doctors are horrible from all of my previous experiences with them.  National Jewish isn’t really an option as they are respiratory specialists, but I might try to call my Allergy/Asthma specialist and GI specalist down there to see if they can help in any way.  Maybe they can recommend a doctor down in Denver that they think could help.  I just don’t know at this point.

I am frustrated.  I am angry.  I am in pain.  I don’t know where to turn.